Self-Experimentation with Misapplied Science
I do have some good reasons. Or at least, not bad reasons. Like, I'd been feeling good on starch and wanted to take it to the max. Or, I'm just finishing up the yeast cleanse and wanted to do something that felt like 'spring-cleaning.' Or, I'm looking forward to going back to eating a high fruit diet when I'm done with the yeast cleanse in just a few days and felt that this would be an appropriate 'transition.' Plus, you know me: I love to self-experiment.
However, in all responsibility and candor, I need to admit that there are some not-so-good reasons why I've been doing this, and specifically, some misapplication of scientific research. I've been reading Stephan Guyenet's series on how Food Reward impacts obesity. You can get a good summary of the concept in David Kessler's The End of Overeating
The antidote? Eat unprocessed, bland foods, come off the dopamine rollercoaster, and suddenly your body resensitizes to all that leptin signaling "I'm full!" and your weight set-point drops effortlessly.
And then there's the 20 Potatoes a Day guy, not obese to begin with, who ate mostly potatoes for two months and corroborated the concept that a very monotonous diet can bring about a spontaneous down-regulation of weight set-point without the negative effects of reduced thyroid function, hunger and frustration.
Since I eat almost no processed food at all, ever (and the only 'processed' food I ever do eat is healthfood store stuff); since I don't even like most industrially processed/artificially flavored foods but favor antioxidant rich and otherwise healthful spices; since, moreover, I'm not obese, my decision that such a regime would be just the right thing for me seems somewhat misguided, no?
My past experience with putting myself on restricted diets is also cause for concern: there is part of me that actually enjoys the restriction, and can find it hard to break. That's why the stipulation of a 'cheat day' and that this monotonous diet was for a limited time only are both saving graces. I am determined that I'll stick to the limited time period because I'm looking forward to fruit!
But I want to spend the rest of this post on the 'cheat/treat' day concept and how it ties in with
placebo/nocebo.
The one flaw in the 'cheat day' concept lies in the languaging. If you're calling it a 'cheat day,' it immediately invokes the idea that it's something 'wrong.' If you worry about nutrition at all, it's easy to talk yourself out of any 'cheating' because it's too much fat/too much sugar/too early in the day, or any other excuse...and then you end up having your cheat day from your yam diet being a yam smoothie!
Very early on, Phil suggested to me that I should call it a 'treat day,' not a 'cheat day,' and I think he's so right. A 'treat' is an exception that feeds your spirit, without importing any of the mind-chatter around what you 'should' or shouldn't eat. A treat is also a celebration of your body--and mind's--inherent flexibility, curiosity and willingness to experience things outside of the normal pattern.
How we talk about and think about what goes in our body plays a huge part in how our body then deals with it. (Of course, I'm not talking about things you're genuinely allergic to.) It's helpful to me to remember that something I consider a 'treat' would probably be seen as health food by many people. Something that I think of as super-decadent and a little risque' might be a 'lite alternative' to many people.
This attitude element, together with the "cheat" vs. "treat"also ties into the whole "placebo"/"nocebo" effect. I love those words: of course I do, I'm a Latinist... "Placebo" means "I will please or do good;" "nocebo" means "I will harm."It's pretty well known now that placebos work: if a person believes that they are receiving something beneficial and healing, the substance they receive will have that effect on them.
What hasn't been given enough attention, especially in the diet/nutrition world, is that the "nocebo" effect also works. If you firmly believe that a certain food is going to be bad for you, it's unlikely that you'll feel good after eating it! If you eat the same food with enjoyment, gratitude, pleasure (and somehow turn off that nutrition policeman in your head), you'll likely feel just fine (again: this isn't about cases of genuine allergic response).
If you've been around strict raw-foodists who believe that all cooked food is poison and say that they ate a teensy morsel of cooked food and were _sooo sick_, you've most likely seen the nocebo effect in action. There are some who claim to feel the difference between low-temperature-dried fruit and nuts and 'cooked' dried fruit and nuts but that kind of hyper-alert is probably the nocebo effect in action too. I know: I've been there. My further concern with choosing a very restricted diet, especially for a longer period of time, and especially with negative languaging like 'cheats,' is that it's inviting the nocebo effect to rule your experience of many otherwise innocuous foods, as they spend a lot of time out of circulation in your body, with ample room for your mind to find reasons why they're 'not good.'
I'll talk about this more in another post, but I sincerely believe that one's regular way of eating should make one's system stronger, not weaker. This means being better able to handle occasional excursions and irregularities, rather than being in danger of death if there's no organic fruit available. In addition to the social empathy element, which I'll also save for the next post on this subject, that concept of strength from one's regimen stays with me nowadays and keeps me from becoming too blinkered and from the tendency to demonize whole families of foods that many people eat quite happily.
Thanks for helping me stay honest and responsible!
Have you experienced the nocebo effect with your eating? Do you enjoy 'treats' or do you 'cheat?'
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"Treat day" over "cheat day" - I love that.
ReplyDeleteThis reminds me of the motto I've adopted over the past year or so (though I still have to remind myself of it often): "There is no such thing as 'cheating,' only 'choosing.'"
""placebo"/"nocebo"...I love those words: of course I do, I'm a Latinist." High-five for that too, m'dear :)
I also really like the concept of a treat day instead of a cheat day and will start calling it that. I am really trying to get my head in the right place. I DO have weight to lose and I DO want to work toward it, and not just wait and see what happens. But I am really working on NOT letting that be my only purpose in life! I know there are more important things. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on all this!
ReplyDeleteI think bloggers have some responsibilities, namely, to tell the truth, credit their sources, etc. I do not think bloggers have a responsibility for the health of their readers. I'm sure there are "health bloggers" with large followings who, wittingly or unwittingly, influence people's decisions in not-good directions. But while I'm often the first to notice the potential harm (in, say, the emphasis on caloric restriction among some raw foodists), I'm also the first to defend their right to live their lives, and to write about them, as they see fit.
ReplyDeleteLove the placebo - nocebo discussion. I think our mental state has a lot to do with how nourishing, or fattening, or not, our food is. Beliefs have a funny way of proving themselves in reality. So if you think a certain food is fattening, or toxic, for you it will be. On the other hand, if you believe that a frosted cupcake is nourishing you, if only on a soul level, and you can eat it with pleasure and no guilt, for you it's health food. I will often turn down food that for one reason or another doesn't appeal to me, but I'll just as often "cheat" (in the right setting, if it feels right, if the food appeals), and I believe on those occasions, whatever I'm eating is "transmogrified" so as to become, for me, nourishment.
I have to be honest, because I love you and care. I think most people who had admitted to eating disorders in the past reveal some inkling of being still hyper-focused on food. Is it healthy or unhealthy is the question? I do feel in general that there are a lot of raw foodists who take food research too seriously and are too eager to jump on the bandwagon at the next trend of a 'bad' food or new cleaning product. Self-experimentation is good I think when it would help with your most immediate health concerns, but it can go to far. I admit even my juice feasting attempts made me too ill. It must be very conflicting to have had people tell you not to diet, but to still feel sick on certain foods, and to have to do a yeast cleanse. All that conflicting info would confuse anyone. And I know when I get confused I tend to just go with my gut. Thanks for listening!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Amber--high fives to you! And I love your motto--choice is a really good concept here too.
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Thanks, Chanelle--and I agree that not letting it become your consuming focus will probably allow things to work 'in the background,' so to speak. I'm going to make a follow-up post about that too, I think.
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Anonymous--it's true that freedom of speech is a wonderful thing and that it challenges our own filters in good ways to get to read everyone's ideas. I do feel, though, that taking responsibility on my blog is also a good way to reinforce my own intentions to 'be my best.'
ReplyDelete'Transmogrified into nourishment' is a great way to put it!
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bitt-thanks so much: I so appreciate both your thoughts and your loving care. It is all very confusing, it's true! Self experimenting with my diet is definitely way too attractive to me: I'm thinking of working on a different kind of self-experimentation challenge. I also think that if you do too many different experiments one after the other, you lose any baseline, and that's a risk that I run...
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LOVE! First post I'm reading in DC, and what a great post it is :)
ReplyDeleteI appreciate all of your thoughts, and I like the subtle shift from "cheat" to "Treat," which is really crucial. I have a lot to say about placebos, but I've learned that it's very hard to address them without running the risk of sounding dismissive / disrespectful.
For you, as a fellow ED survivor, I would only say that you resist the urge to over-read and over-analyze your own health, etc. I certainly went through a phase where I replaced the obsessiveness I'd poured into food into being "healthy" and having good digestion, and it was better, but still obsessive! So much of my recovery has been rooted in learning that I'm not fragile, that things don't have horrifyingly grave consequences all the time, and that I can afford to relax.
That said, I'm obviously still a healthy eater and interested in health, so I'm not suggesting you just go crazy and disregard the science of raw food or veganism or anything nutrition. Just be careful not to treat your body *too* much like a temple ;-)
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Gena--I hope your move to DC went well and you're enjoying settling in. Thanks so much for your wonderful comment. Some time, I'd be curious to hear your thoughts on placebos.
ReplyDeleteLove what you say about the importance of realizing that you're _not fragile_: looking back over the years, I would definitely say that my healthiest times have been times when I felt that way. In my post after this one, I talked a bit about the potential benefits of 'challenging' your body on occasion with foods that you don't necessarily think are optimal: I guess that's like not treating her *too* much like a temple.
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