Write a letter to an older you (tell us what age you’re writing to!). What do you want to ask yourself? What lesson do you want to make sure you remember?
Dear 48-year-old Ela,
Are you still on earth? Do you still worry about being concise enough? Whatever the answer to either of those, it's the year of the Snake again, you just turned 48, which is closer to the decade mark as well as the Chinese-astrological dodecade. Next time around you'll be 60 and they'll coincide! You're thinking back on the previous twelve-year cycles. Back to now, when you/I just turned 36. Back to 24, 12. The glimpsed memories from before one year old. You're seeing patterns both of uplift and of downcast over the time and are learning not to judge either one so harshly; even beginning to discern patterns. By now you've had enough experiences on earth but as a disembodied entity to understand that checking out would not be the end, either of life or of negative issues Perhaps by now you've made peace with being embodied, have learned to balance the eccentricity, which literally means movement out from center, by having some sort of stable home base, physical or not, from which to set out and to which to return. I guess that's the aim of all religions, even. Religions including the shamanistic attention to plant teachers; don't doubt your own abilities in that area. I hope you have an herb garden and lots of wild plants in proximity. And of course the rock-salt teacher, the lithium--remember you're a "rock jockey" and what a good ride it is, keeping you on earth. Remember now, when you were still relatively new to what an opening influence it is, how much more you see with it.
Please remember to pay attention to your own (incredibly trustworthy) intuitions and not to push yourself into doing something because someone else seems to will it. On the other hand, don't have such high standards of perfection and integrity that you don't let yourself finish projects because they're not exactly how you think they ought to be. Get a clearer vision of what you actually want to create before even starting, and there will be less room for either self sabotage or getting pushed around. I hope you've learned those things by now; those are the lessons I'm thinking need noting at this iteration of the twelve-year cycle.
Be your best self, my self. Ela
