Friday, April 13, 2012

Ten Essentials (HAWMC)

My sincerest thanks for all the love and comments, both on and off the blog, in response to my previous post. The freedom to express myself and the loving responses are really helping me through this challenging time.
Happy Friday the 13th! A lucky day for many, I know. Today's prompt: Ten Things You Can't Do Without--the desert island emergency kit. I like how WEGO suggest that this list could be expanded on in future posts as well, focusing on why these items are important. I should start by saying that the whole concept of "ten things I can't do without" strikes a discordant note for me. There has been so much emphasis in my life on "doing without." Even now, living in what feels like relative luxury, I live without a bathroom or toilet in a not-quite-two-room cabin, driving 20-some-year old beat-down automobiles. I've lived without electricity, without a convenient water supply, without food, without friends. Probably the "no friends" scenario was the hardest of all. I get really into certain foods and think I'll eat them every day for the rest of my life, and then I can't look at them. So, whenever I try to think of something I'll certainly need and couldn't do without, the chances are that there's either been a time in my life when I've done without it, or that I can envision a time when I'll do without it in the future.


With that disclaimer, here are ten things I love, not necessarily in order:


1. The Sun!
Like the moon, I need the light of the sun to respond to--I reflect its light and shine back myself.
full moon last September
Even when the sun is filtered through snow clouds, it fuels me and lifts me up.  
I feel blessed to see the colors the sun throws through our atmosphere--winter sunsets are one of the best things about winter here. 
These last few days, we've had the "solar oven" effect in our cabin, which I love. I miss the warmth of the CA and HI and Israel sun--but find so much to appreciate about the sun here.


2. People
If it wasn't for other people, I definitely wouldn't still be around. I mean that both figuratively and very literally.


If it wasn't for my mum--and my dad, of course--I wouldn't be here in the first place. And my mum has also been a wonderful rock and help to me through some dark times in my life.
Phil, of course. Even if he's ashamed of me at the moment, his love, his kindness, his generosity, his general all-around awesomeness are green shoots in the parched and chilled soil of my existence. He's so beloved by so many people, and I feel truly blessed that he directs so much of his abundant love toward me.
Everyone who reads this blog! If you didn't read it, I wouldn't be writing it, so I "wouldn't be here" in that sense either. Having lived in so many places throughout my life, I have the bittersweet Persephone blessing of dear friends scattered all around the world. I am grateful, so grateful, for all my friends--both those whom I'm blessed to see on a regular basis and those with whom I have to keep up by electronic and spiritual means, including some I've never met face to face.
(Now, how would I take "people" with me to a desert island??)


3. Writing (Pens, notebooks, computers) 
If not for writing, I'd have no sense of perspective on my life, and I'd perpetually feel like the unmilked cow. I wouldn't be giving as much either to my community or to my immediate environment.


I'm so grateful for notebooks and the trees from which they came.
And for my computers, as frustrating as they can be at times! Yes, this is a snapshot of using both computers for recording a lecture (slides on one, script on the other)--but even writing lectures is a valid part of writing!


4. Rocks, and Hiking to Find Them
We're blessed to live right on the edge of a beach that is rocky, dynamic, and often deserted. I'm one of those who has to limit the number of rocks she brings home from a hike, and I'm somewhat obsessed with rocks with holes in them! Last weekend, when Terry was visiting, she and Phil hiked without me while I nursed my 'flu and worked, and both days they brought me home a "hole" rock. I'd have loved to have been able to join them for the hike, but those gifts made me feel so special and loved, and included.


5. Creating Food for Other People and Gifting It
Another thing I couldn't take to a desert island so easily!
As non-visual and messy as I am, it's really meaningful to me not only to make delicious food for people, well-chosen food for each person's tastes and preferences, but also to make it beautiful and to present it in an attractive way.


6. Herbs
I make up for all the things on the list that I couldn't take with me to a desert island by including something I would likely find right there! 
This reminds me that I should resume my series of Herbal Projects blog posts! Wildcrafting, growing, harvesting, playing with herbs--I've been doing it since I was about 4 years old when I served our coal delivery man a brew I'd made from herbs in the back yard! As mercurial and changeable as I am, this is something I've always come back to, and whether or not the herbs themselves are efficacious (often they are), it seems like the activity of being engaged with them is a total positive for me.


7. Carrots!
I should do a compilation post of all my carrot recipes sometime! This is one of the things I'm afraid I might end up "going off of," but carrots have been a staple in my diet for an impressively long time by my standards. I wish they had fewer omega-6's and more omega-3's, but they have very little of either. I love their taste, texture and versatility.


We still haven't figured out how to grow wonderful carrots here, they've tended to be woody...
...although this carrot is a winner, and it's even paired with another of my favorites, mint, and with a beloved notebook and Vitamix in the background...
8. Pills
I hate to say it, and would love to think that this may not be true sometime in the future, but I'd be remiss not to include medications in this list. As resistant as I can be to taking them, they're the first thing I pack whenever I go on a trip, and I know that if I go without them for long, bad things happen.
9. Green Growth, Inside and Out
I'd hope that my desert island wasn't a sandy desert but had at least some rainfall and water--but even in parched sandy soils, green things grow. As the sun lifts me up, the green in the ground calms me and gives me a sense of connection with life beyond the bounds of my own body.
 Plants in the house breathe for me.
10. Muscle...and Fat
I've buried this all the way at the bottom, where perhaps no one's reading anymore, so if you're still reading you get to tell me whether this is brave or just bravado. Part of my incredulity about the danger and criticality of my current situation stems from the fact that in the past I've been at much lower, scarily low, weights than I am now--and here I still am, so what's the big deal, right?! So I'm reminding myself that with 20 fewer pounds on me than I have now, what I would lose would be mostly muscle. It was hard to move around with that little muscle back then. I need muscle. I'd go as far as to say it's essential. And I hate even more to say this one, but in addition to muscle, I need some adipose tissue. I still see plenty of fat on my body--that's not negotiable, that's not there to be gotten rid of. Thyroid and steroid hormones, like progesterone, are held in fat tissue, so if I don't have anywhere to put them, taking my pills won't do me any good!


That's my Ten, and it got long! I've seen some wonderful Ten Things on other people's posts already this morning, being "behind the curve" in Alaska Time. What are YOUR ten things?

14 comments:

  1. Ela, I love this post. It's just so warm and sweet and funny and open -- it shows the true you. I especially love that you included carrots. Can't say they'd even make my top 100 list!

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    1. Thanks, Gretchen!
      No carrots? Wow, that's funny too...
      love
      Ela

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  2. Anastasia@healthymamainfo.comApril 13, 2012 at 12:35 PM

    Thank you for such a beautiful and honest post! My list probably will be far bigger than yours, but here's a small version: family, nature, yoga, cooking, blogging. Happy Friday 13th! :)

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    1. Thanks, Anastasia--yours is a lovely list too, and I'm sure you could expand on it even more!
      love
      Ela

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  3. Yes, honest post. Like the previous one. Honesty is what makes a blog irresistible to me. I love that you've taken this challenge. You and Gretchen have been so much fun to read all month.

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    1. Thanks, Carrie--it's been an odd time to take this on, but I'm glad to be doing it as well--and that Gretchen's doing it too!
      love
      Ela

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  4. Great list! I loved being surprised by carrots, then rocks! ROCKS! I neglected rocks on my list, being a rockhound since my early days. But I can say, rocks go with the beach and space (aka hikes) in my list. I love the ones on the beach with holes. There's one beach I go to that is full, full I tell you, of rocks. Some shells, but lots of rocks and I can't help but pick up the ones with holes. Actually my art was inspired by those right now. The pieces are not up yet but will be on the gurglingthoughts blog. Enough about me. Thanks for sharing you.

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    1. Thanks, Meredith! I'm not surprised to hear you're a rockhound given your own affinity for beaches and hikes. I'd love to see how they inspired your art.
      love
      Ela

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  5. When you say you mix a "brew" for your delivery man, do you mean a mix of herbs or an elixir??? Do tell! I'd love a recipe for a brew. And I am definitely with you for gifting others with food. It's so satisfying and almost selfish (at least for me). I love it!

    I totally love fat... in avocados and coconuts. ;)

    You have a great 10 things! I'd also love the summer sun in Alaska- the winter... um... not so much.
    :)

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    1. Lori, I know what you mean about the selfish element in gifting others--definitely the case for me too.

      The "brew" for the delivery man when I was four years old? It was whatever herbs we had growing in the yard--mint, thyme, rosemary, sage, maybe a little marjoram, that I was steeping in my little "cauldron," and I gave it to him in a fancy teacup with a spoonful of sugar!

      Oh, if you were here in the winter I bet you'd get into skiing and have a great time!
      love
      Ela

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  6. Ela, I want to reply to this statement: "Part of my incredulity about the danger and criticality of my current situation stems from the fact that in the past I've been at much lower, scarily low, weights than I am now--and here I still am, so what's the big deal, right?!" I think the words "in the past" are key here. As someone who has about 20 years or so on you, I can tell you that every single thing you do to your body is cumulative. Further, as a natural consequence of aging - injuries take longer to recover from (this is true even of Olympic level athletes who continue into early middle age - I have read their comments on this), if you lay off exercising, it takes longer to get back in shape, and certain abusive behaviors that your body could somehow seem to recover and bounce back from - it no longer can. In my case, even something like sleep deprivation can take twice as long to recover from as it did a number of years ago. Just because you got away with reducing your body weight to a dangerously low level "in the past" and managed to survive does not mean you can count on that being the case today. It's quite possible to reach a "tipping point" from which you may not be able to recover. Please take better care of yourself for all of us who care so much for you. Your body is the vehicle housing your soul in this life - it works non-stop to keep you alive and well, and it deserves kindness, tenderness and loving care.

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    1. Mindy, thank you so much for expressing this so clearly and with so much care, and the benefit of your own experience.
      That's a really good point that I am older now, and I do already have some damage from earlier times. I've heard you say before that you notice changes in your own body and that they don't always happen immediately--I appreciate the perspective you bring.
      I'm hoping that by being so open about this, I'm also forcing myself to be honest with my self care.
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      Ela

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  7. Loved reading this, as I did awhile ago on my phone. It prompted lots of thoughts about my own ideas of a list and the ideas also that you thought of, things you think you could never go without you really can.

    Keep that muscle and fat on you, girl! You need it!

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    1. Thanks, bitt--I'd love to see your list some day too.
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      Ela

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