The View From Here/Up For This Week

The View From Here

There is more green here every day: soon the new grass will have outstripped all the tired old brown grass buried in the darkness of snow all those months.

The sandhill cranes arrived last week and fly through the dawn and dusktime skies emitting their ineffably haunting calls. There are more gulls every day, so elegant as they ride the air currents. The eagles are mating - our haughty, imperious grandees billing and cooing and chasing. This morning, we saw a lone trumpeter swan flying north. Very rare to see a lone swan, we wondered what befell its fellow.

The view from inside of me: it's as though I'm being forced, age 33, to learn the lessons of old age and acceptance of loss of faculties. I am still exhausted from the journey/sleepless night/accident, and weak. Everything I take on is too much. This morning, I set out to make two kinds of energy bars each for myself and Phil, as well as bread for Phil, and was completely exhausted by about two-thirds through. But that is how I ordinarily cook! If I'm going to make stuff, I might as well multitask and make a bunch, get into my groove, dance around the kitchen… I don't even know how to do it differently! And my memory is suddenly less good too. 

Up For This Week

Watch out for the May edition of Eighty Percent Raw Magazine coming out May 1st! I have an article in there on how to enjoy peanuts responsibly. I've also just sent in the second part of a two-part blog post on the 80-10-10 diet.

Phil is heading off tomorrow for the first camping trip of the year, bearhunting, clamming, etc, and I'm not going with him. Even if I didn't have bees to take care of and mercury removals, I simply don't have the energy to go for three days boating/hiking/camping frozen nights. Sobering and chastening just begin to get it.

Of course, I hope he'll have a wonderful time and look forward to hearing his tales of adventure.

I'm disappointed that I didn't write all the blog posts that  I had intended to write last week, but fully intend to make a better fist of things this week (and forgive myself: last week was hard enough without recriminations).

So, this week I will share my 'alternate fudge' recipe that I'd promised last week. They're really more 'bark' than fudge - I'm not even sure what the right name for them is. Melted coconut oil with stevia and spices and crunchy yummy things in it…

And surely a 'wordstalk' this week. I'd like to write some 'writing-oriented' things also, and, since I seem to be in a losing battle with the food demons currently, perhaps a little about that too.